Written by: Toussaint Romain, Fearless Volunteer, YMCA of Greater Charlotte Diversity-Inclusion-Global Committee
I have never seen a young rooster before. But there it was
standing prominently on a heap of trash in this African desert pecking in
search of worms. I guess food is food, no matter where it comes from.
Still, as our convoy pulled up to this remote African
village after a four-hour drive, the startled young rooster spared no delay and
took flight into the compound we came to visit.
It didn’t take long for our group of YMCA leaders to enter
the compound. We approached the ebony tree but not a single Muslim woman looked
over at us. They were staring intently at something in front of them, but I
could not see what it was.
As soon as I turned the corner, it jumped out at me. I saw
an oasis of children sitting neatly in the courtyard, which was by the ebony
tree. This courtyard had been transformed into a classroom and these Muslim women
were watching their children in class. I remembered when my mother used to do
that to me when I was in primary school.
I turned my attention to the children who ranged in age from
5 to 15. They wore Muslim outfits underneath their school outfits and sat in
rows while facing their teacher. There were about 6 to 7 rows and what seemed
like 20 children sitting shoulder-to-shoulder in each row. Their teacher was a
young 16-year-old male who took his teaching role seriously.
But the fun was short-lived. The 16-year-old teacher turned around from the chalk-board and gave us a stern look. “L’Attention!” he said, before returning to his grammar lecture. The children did as he wanted but continued to smile at each other and at me. Its true: children’s smiles are universal – all kids share that same smile no matter where they are.
As they returned to their lesson, I looked around at their
courtyard-classroom. I saw the same
young rooster walking by the children, but no one paid it any attention. I
looked up at the walls surrounding us. They looked tattered like a war-torn middle-eastern
setting.
Still, this was not a scene from war-torn Afghanistan because
no war had done that to this village. It was the result of sheer poverty. The
village was falling apart because the villagers could not afford to maintain
it. This was another universal truth in Africa, it seemed.
And then I did what most parents should never do…I allowed
that one forbidden thought to enter my mind. I thought “what if this was my
kid?” Because that girl over there smiles just like my daughter, so what if my
daughter had to go this school? Before I realized it, the damage was done. That
one single thought had pushed me over the edge and my threshold had been
reached. This was Day 4 in Africa and I could not suppress my feelings any
longer.
I quietly excused myself from the courtyard and returned
towards the van. I sank my head into my hands so that no one would see the
tears I was fighting back. I was overwhelmed by what I was seeing and how I
felt.
As I walked out, our driver Malick Diof asked “sick?” Before
I could answer, a familiar voice rang from behind us “no that’s not car
sickness brother, that’s something else.” Michael DeVaul had been watching my
downward spiral or at least he recognized my staggered jolt from the classroom
and quickly pursued me with interest.
“Brother Toussaint, this is why we are here. To find schools
like this and to invest in them” Michael said. “I know it doesn’t seem fair to
see them like this, but this is why we are here.” He leaned closely to me and
continued to say additional things. I acknowledged it but said I needed to some
time to gather myself.
I walked away and found myself by that heap of trash again.
And there was that wretched young rooster following me this time. Disgusted, I
turned and walked the other way. There I found a group of young boys playing
soccer. They waved at me to join them but I smiled and declined. It was very
sobering to watch them play. I was struck again by a confluence of emotions.
I returned to the classroom after 10 or 15 minutes and the headmaster was speaking. She had welcomed my group to her school, but told us that in truth this was her home and that she had been opening it up to the children in her village for years. In many ways, her home had become the staple within the community. She was keeping her village together.
This headmaster mentioned that all she needed was 100 XAF
per student to provide school supplies for the entire year. That converts into
20 cents in US currency. 20 cents could provide pens, paper and learning
materials for an entire year for one student. 20¢.
I couldn’t resist. At the most opportune moment, I grabbed
this women by the hand and out of the view of everyone else, I emptied out my
wallet. I had enough cash to pay for 100 children for the next several years
and I wanted her to have it.
But please don’t mistake the moment. I was not doing this to
be the American savior. Rather, I did it because I felt so ashamed and guilty for
so many reasons but in particular as a black man. I hung my eyes from this
woman and after I handed her all of that money, I cried on her shoulder.
But she looked at me and recognized the internal struggle that
I was having. As the village matriarch,
she sensed that this visitor needed her. So she embraced me and said “its ok,
its ok, its ok” over and over again. She ended with “God bless you” and then
smiled at me. Again, the universal smile. I don’t know if you’ve ever cried on
grandma’s shoulder and then felt immediately revived once she smiled at you,
but that is how I felt at that very moment.
By now our group was packing up to leave. As I followed the
pack, a 30 something year-old-male ran over to me. “Une photo avec toi” he
asked in French. (“A photo with you.”) “Sure.” But the funny thing was, he
didn’t have a camera. So I asked one of my group members to take it. We took
the picture and then afterwards this man grabbed his shirt and pointed to mine.
“Changer de chemises?” He wanted to switch shirts. I was initially confused but
I obliged him. We switched shirts. He smiled at me. Again that smile penetrated
my heart. His smile did something to me.
I didn’t realize it immediately. But this man didn’t want
the picture for himself. That picture was for me. To remind me of something I
haven’t quite figured out yet. He took my shirt not because it was fancy. But
he took my shirt to remind that a part of me will always remain in that
village.
I am connected to them.
From the children’s smiles, to the matriarch’s smile and my
brother’s smile, they each reminded me of the Senegalese “teranga.” They each
welcomed me home. So before I left I am sure you can imagine how I hugged each
of them tightly and for as long as I could.
In the end, I returned to the van and as I got on I saw that
young rooster, once again, pecking at
the heap of trash. But this time it looked up at me with a large worm in its
mouth. It had captured a prize from beneath the surface.
It was then that Michael DeVaul’s final words rang with
clarity. “Remember Toussaint, where we see scarcity, they see abundance.” Its
all beginning to make sense. Where I saw trash, that young rooster saw fertile
feeding grounds. Where I saw students lying in trash, filth and lack, the
matriarch saw education, hope and opportunity. In other words, don’t look at
the surface. Look deeply within. Hebrews 11:1, no?
There is still so much more to understand about my first
trip to Africa but for now, I’m grateful for the to have had this moment of
clarity with my African ancestry. I shall call it the Lesson of the Young
Rooster.
Written by: Toussaint Romain
November 24th, 2017
I am overwhelmed just reading this touching account. Thank for sharing your vulnerability.
ReplyDeleteYou were schooled in so much a bigger way than the children.Yours was in learning one of life's greatest lesson...we are all wonders under the surface. Same value same worth.
ReplyDeleteYou showed tender caring...thanks for your eloquent sharing.